So today was Star Wars marathon day with my friends at Alan's place and everything was great. I really enjoyed watching the movies and such and it was fantastic. Before I went to alans I had a ham and cheese sandwich then at at New China, yes I said it buffet!!! I can't eat hardly anything at once anymore because I'm not used to stuffing my face anymore. I chose lean chicken and some lo mein noodles with some banana cream pudding for dessert! All in all I ate about 1,000 calories at new china which was a big investment. It may have been less but I always try to overestimate when I can't see the nutritional information. I was satisfied for the day and went on to hang out with Alan and proceed to watch a couple movies. I went to another friends house after that and we decided we wanted something sweet. I had eaten 1,270 calories at this point so eating at McDonalds didn't seem like a bad idea because I could fit in an o so delicious 150 calorie cone. When I walked in I could smell that greasy aroma and I had ice cream on my mind! In retrospect I should have ran because I was about to ruin a whole day of progress on an impulse. The server asked me what I wanted and I paused and then it happened. I ordered a double quarter pounder with cheese and a large fry with a large drink. As I write this I feel shameful. A double quarter pounder with cheese has 700 calories in it and a large fry has 500. I was given the monstrous fry and burger and walked back to my table and proceeded to get a diet coke (funny right? considering what I was planning to eat!). I felt guilty before I ever touched the food so I just gave away about 4/5ths of my fries to my two friends who were with me. I also gave them some portions of my burger each. Well regardless I compared the size of the fries I had left to the $1 version and figured I had just consumed 800 calories with a burger and some fries. The math didn't add up and I knew it wouldnt. So my total for the day is around 2,070 calories which is above what I wanted to eat. I tried to rationalize it with my friends for a second then stopped myself. I don't care if a "normal" person is supposed to eat what I just ate. I'm not "normal" because if I let myself up my calories up to 2,000 right now I know I will just keep letting them go up. The saying "give myself enough rope to hang myself" fits here I would say. 1,500 is satisfying and when I get down to my goal weight I want to have to make very minimal changes. I made a bad decision and I'm glad to admit it because I will remember this the next time I'm tempted. I'm glad you guys read this because I know that when I goof you know and that helps me so much on this journey. Its easy to gorge when nobody knows (for me) and to rationalize. When I see my mistake in bold print I can analyze why I did what I did. I acted on impulse and that was my downfall today.
-Michael
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